I don't understand!
I have been breathless for you all my life
My stomach turns with butterflies
When you say my name
I love you so much
Why can't I be with you?
You say that you love me
That when you love someone
It never goes away
Being in love means
You can fall out of love
I can't let you go
I want to be with you
I can't get you out of my head
Its like waves crashing against the rocks
Its constant, never ending
Just wanting to be with you
Holding you, sitting next to you
I don't care about the other stuff
Those are benefits of what I feel
But do you feel the same?
I hear you sing, watch you play
See you draw or paint
If only you knew, my love
How much you mean to me
How deep the sorrow is
To see you hurting
If only you knew, my sweet
How dear you are to my heart
How I long to hold you
And be in your arms
If only you knew, my precious
How special you are to me
How it saddens me
To see you lost
If only you knew, my husband
How cherished you are to me
As far as the sea is from the stars
As far as the moon is from the sun
Your love is as deep to me.
Marriage
Oh how glorious
The engagement
The excitement
The thrill of planning
Our dream wedding
Food rotten
No ring bearer
Minister late
Families arguing
No cake box
Wrong music
No flowers I paid for and wanted
New flower arrangement
No help from servers
Unable to eat
Drinks served warm
Choked on wedding cake
Dad looked handsome in suit
The man of my dreams in cream
Tears trying to fall
Wedding vows messed up
Flower girl so beautiful
6 months pregnant
Pictures turned out great
We did it
The happiest day of our lives
No honeymoon
No dream wedding for me
Disappointment
Despair
Exhausted.
Freedom?
Two become on
Being married
Once to my best friend
Things have changed so much
Now I hardly know him
I don't feel the love
Once felt so passionately
Hatred and anger
Are all the consumes me
Have you ever looked at
someone and felt hate?
How sad is that,
when he is your mate?
Have you ever just
gone through the motions?
Lacking feeling
of old devotions.
I made a commitment
and now I am stuck
now way out
of this stinking rut
The feelings I once had
are all gone from me
Disdain and disgust
is what is left in me
I sleep next to you
still in our bed
Thoughts of leaving you
Going through my head
Planning and planning
making sure e
Two become one
If they are lucky
Two become one
Only during the ceremony
Even during sex
We are selfish
We are human
Independent
Self-Centered
The "Me" syndrome
Marriage
a combination
a melding of flesh
body, mind & soul
Maybe!
Honeymoon equals happiness
Questionable?
Lazines, Arguments
Always wanting to be right.
"Yes, Dear"
"No, Dear"
Bull crap
Speak up
What's really on your mind!
Shut up!
Tears
Counseling
Does it work?
For some
The majority
No!
Too young
Too Wild
Not wanting to settle
Ready for something new
Is the grass greener?
Oh yeah!
Divorce
Child support
2 homes
2 sets of bills
New signific
A Stormy Night You Never Saw by ravynfaire, literature
Literature
A Stormy Night You Never Saw
It was a mid-spring night
Cool breeze brushing up against my face
Memories of youth flooding my mind
Thinking back to that fateful race
My hands wrapped around a cup of hot coco
Tears falling from my eyes
Remembering how I talked to my parents
Telling them all those lies
A secret
We were going to play out
I hopped in your car
You did a turn about
We drove to our spot, parked
Music blasting
About 30 cars boomed
People laughing
Cars at the starting line
My heart began pounding
3, 2, 1, GO!! Closer to the mark
Pressure began mounding
Out of nowhere
Cop's sirens, blaring
Then thunder and sprinkles
Like God was hearing
Al
A child's laugh,
A baby's cry,
a father's sweet look,
and a mother's smile
The rain against my face,
Catching Lightening bugs,
playing in the snow,
and grandparent's hugs
Watching the sun rise,
feeling its warmth against my skin.
Watching a soccer game,
where your kid's team wins
A full moon night,
a soft breeze,
the ocean spray,
is a simple joy to me!!
My mind, body and soul
Burning with passion
to be who I want to be
An artist
Actor
Painter
Poetess
Web Designer
But I have no talents
No skills
I want to be on the show "Made"
but I am too old
My youth has long since passed
But I am still clingy on to it
The last few strands are in my grip
The desire to accomplish my dreams
Are building up
Welding like a fire
Hotter than the sun
The anxiety of every day life
Overwhelming
Pressure building
Fear creeping in
Not allowing me to win
taking my dreams away
making them regrets
why did I not do this?
why did I not do that?
If only?
If only doesn't matter
Start it now
Pre
A movie just came out
Called "Finding Neverland"
About the man who wrote
The story of "Peter Pan"
His imagination was brilliant
He could take you into such fairy tales
A land of enchantment
Full of wonder in such detail
He made you think that you were right there
A part of that reality
Every step taking you deeper
With such theatricality
Just like my little girl
Who at the age of three
Has mastered play time
And setting her imagination free
Her barbies become her daughters
Her stuff animals become her sons
They become princes and princesses
Her baby dolls are her little ones
She rocks them to sleep
Gives them kisses an
A small child
A sweet wonder
Tenderness unfolding
An adult she shall become
Me, I am one already
But I must help her
She will one day be a mom
hopefully not as soon as me
She is precious
An angel
A devil in disguise
Oh, what have I gotten into
Quietly she sleeps
Not a single sound
My time
To just lose it
But I am to upset
about my workload and the finances
Why can't things just go smoothly
Why can't it be like when I was the kid
Not a care in the world
Why the hardships?
Why the drama?
Please someone help me
Its morning time and
I don't want to get out of bed
Struggling to go to a job I hate
To make money to pay th